Honor My Reality

This will be short. Mostly because I have not found a way to honor my reality yet. Until recently I was working a job that required me to work odd hours so the little time I did have I spent with family and friends. Now that I am unemployed I spend a lot of my time on the computer looking for jobs. Perhaps finding a stable job with a steady schedule I can create a reality that involves me writing more.

Now don't get me wrong I find myself jotting down ideas all the time. I am on my phone reading an article and I must go to notepad and write something down. I recently downloaded an app that allows me to brainstorm ideas in a sort of mind map with bubbles and different colors. I was using it to plan something, but I found myself more worried about the color of the bubbles and making the map look symmetrical. A fun activity but it does not honor my reality so much as create a new one.

Planning time to sit down and write without confidence is hard to do. Clearly, I am doing it right now so maybe it isn't so hard. Although this is based off a prompt and allows me to be sort of free-form with my thoughts. To sit down and write a short story or a novel requires some leg work. Any good writer will tell you that it takes time and patience to create a good story. Look at all the authors we are waiting to finish pieces of work (George R. R. Martin and Patrick Rothfuss to name a few). While some authors find it easy to sit down and pound out a few pages these two struggle to get those pages out and I think they are the real heroes. While I am with everyone else in wanting the next installment of A Song of Ice and Fire as well as Day 3 I am certain that Rothfuss and Martin are closer to the reality of being a paid author then say Patterson or even my favorite author Stephen King.

So, my reality is I am waiting for the spark. Maybe that is the wrong attitude and I should be attempting something every day, but I think that is the point of this book club I joined. A spark to get me writing. Am I doing more than complaining to the void about why I never write? no but who cares. The only people reading these are my family and friends and they all tell me I am the best. Not really but if this makes me write more and then I find the story I have been looking for in the process, yay!

To all the struggling writers and procrastinating authors out there I salute you. May your bookshelves need organizing and your cursor never move.